Comatose

I was out of one of my meds for almost 4 days. It's a med I need to help slow my brain down and keep me calm. Well my head was spinning and everything seemed to be moving around me at 100 miles an hour. And I was getting panicky. Not good in the mental health department. Anyways I was able to pick up my prescription yesterday and took them at 5:00pm. I slept until 9:00 this morning. Only to wake up now and then to go to the bathroom and once to check the computer before I shut it down for the night.
I am feeling much more relaxed and nothing seems of kilter. But I'll never do that again. I hate running out and not realizing it. It's actually terrifying when you can't control your thoughts and feelings and they become this confusing ball of messiness that you can't find the beginning or end to clean everything up. I'm not sure if this makes sense to you but I guess you'd have to be in the state to understand the metephor.

On another note I am back on top of things today. I've started laundry and managed to get dressed..sorta. Im still in my t-shirt I wore to bed and yoga pants i put on so I could wash my favorite shorts. Yay Me! I'll get dressed once my laundry is done ;)

I am in serious need to get in PSP and either make a script or a bundle. Im not sure which I want to make. Or a template maybe. I have no gumption to do much of anything but spin my wheels today. I am not writing a tutorial today. I need a day off from that. My blogs are all up and running smoothly although I need to get blinkies up for ADI and Bee-NCreative. I am back on ADI cuz I was being tortured with tube previews and the CT is so laid back. I'm doing CT for Amy as a favor. She loved my work and asked me if I would join in. I couldn't say no. I am not joining anymore! I'm not going to go back to burning myself out. Im enjoying myself with ftu tutorials for gimp, designing and tubing. Im going to keep it that way for a while. No more bending so far backwards for CT's and feeling like I'm not getting anywhere. Although I did love the kits and tubes, but it's not about all that. It's about having fun and enjoying a hobby.

Well I think I've updated enough for the past 48 hours or so, I'll be around somewhere!